Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.- John 12:24 ESV.
In my second year of university and OAU Ife, I suddenly began to sense that God wanted me to be a missionary. I was in my second year of an Electronic and Engineering Program and I did not want to think of becoming a missionary! I could not imagine leaving my studies behind or abandoning my career! I loved God very much but I could not imagine that He would want me to suffer so much!
For weeks I was tormented by these thoughts. I struggled for a while and then I forgot about it, I guess that was because of the Engineering school work. After a few months or maybe a year, the thought returned, but this time I had grown in my faith in God. I had learned that whatever God wanted for me was the best that I could possibly be. I was ready to lay down anything and everything to be who God wanted me to be.
My ambitions died but God multiplied it. I completed my program, went to Canada, became a missionary in Canada and now a missionary in Kuje and still trusting God to open doors for us to support more missions all over Africa. The seed that died those many years back is still producing the fruit of changed lives today.
If you lay down your life, and reckon yourself as crucified with Christ, you will discover that the new life you have is far more glorious.